I finally understand...I have to trust

Dear Mom:

 

    I'm truly quite discouraged about my speed in getting things done...or I don't know maybe I'm just have too much stuff, or the Lord keep giving me too more things

 

    This week has been an OK week, I truly learn a lot about leadership, or blessing other. It is so hard and so fun and so nerve breaking at the same time. I truly love them.

 

   I want to tell the experience I have in leading a district meeting.

 

    One of my responsibilities I have to prepare and conduct a district meeting.   That was my hardest challenge I think. I didn’t like it, or I like it...but I have really..not too much idea,,,in doing it. I know it is hard...yet I don't know why.

 

     What district meeting is to me is to really seek out the Lord's will and present in the right way that can inspired, teach, and bless the member in the district.

 

    To do that, you can use different method, you can give a talk, you can invite others to give a talk, you can do role play, and you can watch video. But 1st I thought.....you need to seek out what they need, and what is their desire. And according to that design a good district meeting.

 

    That was...I don't know,...not too easy. Because I 1st have to really understand each one of them. I really don't grow up in church...so I really have...not to much idea...the only think I can rely is the holy spirit.

 

    The 1st couple district meeting was....not too easy, There are different challenges,

 

I'm not too sure the problem is..

 

. I try different thing the last time, I...I don't know...seek out the Lord's will and

 

 

 

it is a balance....not a forcible thing...it comes....naturally.....haha I'm still not sure how. But. the last feeling I have...most strongly impressed upon my mind. is.

 

 "trust in the lord" That I did, it was really...well

 

     I finally understand...I have to trust...since I did my best.

 

Because I already doing all I can...but I still don't 100% trust the Lord.. I need to Fong Xing放心. or put the trust and work on the Lord...when you do all you can.

 

So the last one actually work really well, thank the Lord for it. It is not me.

 

I love my district member, they are amazing. I trust them.

 

    Another thing I felt is that how much...the Lord loved these missionaries. The Lord truly love them, he wants them to grow to improve, to stand...not as really only temporal wise, but spiritual wise. He makes them stand...even in some extend will not exclude hard time.

 

    His love is great, I can not comprehend. It's not too easy to explain...but I know that the Lord loves them

 

    Right now I have a new companion. still in the same area in English work....which is not too happy for me.

 

   Mom I want to thank you for all the things you do, because you are my mom.

 

                                             Love Elder Chu 4-20-2010