2013年1月7日
親愛的家人:
這是這週我給會長的信。
這週很特別的是我清楚的辨認出聖靈的提示了，並跟隨著祂去做祂要我做的事。我們這週有許多慕道友有明顯的進步，看到他們的心在改變，我的喜悅真的是無法言語形容。我真可以感受到經文所說的:"喜悅是多麼大啊!!
看到他們，我想要大叫讚美神。
我覺得很奇妙。今天我在個人研讀時，看到耶穌基督的榜樣。那麵糰、和芥菜種子的比喻。播種的，無需注意或照顧，神會教導和幫助他們、慢慢的膨脹、長大。我現
在學習到去放手，而當我虛心，讓神幫助她們。我真的就看到奇蹟，看到神的大能。ㄧ段時間沒有聯絡的慕道友出現，不愛閱讀經文的，主動認真和我們讀經文。慕
道有辨認和狗受到聖靈，得到摩爾門經的見證...等。
我學著不再有得失心，因為我知道神會照看他們。以前我總是為這些靈魂憂慮，看到他們沒有進步。我會在路邊，和一個偶遇的不積極成員，講20幾分鐘，只因為 我心傷他偏離，希望我可以做什麼導引。不斷的聽他說，並試圖導引他思想，告訴他神的真理是什麼。而最終發現，他都聽不進去，很難過。
以前，我很急。希望他們都可以一日千里，現在我知道他們需要時間。
About companionship,
不知怎麼和同伴溝通，只知道聽從和接受，盡力去愛、包容和找出可以從同伴身上學習到的事情，調整自己，讓彼此的相處更好。但我有些不開心，總覺得不大對。 到頭來又落入一個循環，變成同伴似乎不斷的在告訴我要怎麼做，跟我說教，而我就只能乖乖的受教和聽從。我也發現我不知道如何幫助我的同伴進步，和協助我的同伴。
2013/1/14
我學著不再有得失心，因為我知道神會照看他們。以前我總是為這些靈魂憂慮，看到他們沒有進步。我會在路邊，和一個偶遇的不積極成員，講20幾分鐘，只因為 我心傷他偏離，希望我可以做什麼導引。不斷的聽他說，並試圖導引他思想，告訴他神的真理是什麼。而最終發現，他都聽不進去，很難過。
以前，我很急。希望他們都可以一日千里，現在我知道他們需要時間。
About companionship,
不知怎麼和同伴溝通，只知道聽從和接受，盡力去愛、包容和找出可以從同伴身上學習到的事情，調整自己，讓彼此的相處更好。但我有些不開心，總覺得不大對。 到頭來又落入一個循環，變成同伴似乎不斷的在告訴我要怎麼做，跟我說教，而我就只能乖乖的受教和聽從。我也發現我不知道如何幫助我的同伴進步，和協助我的同伴。
親愛的媽媽:
我也很愛妳。你提醒了我，我只有這個時間可以全心為神服務，我該珍惜。已經過了1/3了!!! 好快呀~ 你說的對，我真的沒有時間懊惱，只能不斷的往前看。
我有好多要學習和做的。自我傳教以來，我最大的課題在溝通和表達。不管是寫會長信、e-mail、同伴或教導...一切都需要溝通，生活中所有事都是以人
交流溝通為基礎，且是有效率的溝通。我發現我真的很不會讓別人暸解我的意思。但我這週學到很多，我覺得好多了。
我給會長的信~
Dear President:
About Thy work,
This week we visited lots of LA and have try some new methods like exchange journals. I am happy to know those members one by one. But sad to find out we have to let go some of our investigators.
This week I found our mind separated and can't do everything. I hope I can help my investigators grow and come unto Christ. I love each of them. However, they stop moving and even 退步. The reason why I guess first it's because we do not have companion union,second it's because their heart need more time to soften and be prepared. It took me a long time to realize and admit that. I didn't want to accept or let go for I still have hope for miracles. They might change their heart, mind. Maybe they would one day understand the important of this gospel. However, They are still the same. They really do not care about what we are sharing but just need someone to talk to, accompany. I am really sad for I do have expectations on them. However, I look back of myself, I do have things to work on so He could put prepared people in my hand. First thing I need to be better is companionship. I found we put the saying on our bike about family. But I do not live out or qualified this saying.
During sister exchange, I have a deeper understanding of loving my companion. I am grateful for sister. Lin taught me the responsibility of being myself and help my companion learn and grow. In other word, I have to speak out my opinions about things. Don't just do because big companion say so. Be a person who has principles. I haven't found what is my principle or what kind of person I want to be yet. However, I do get one point- I need to speak out.
Anyway, after this sister exchange. There was a huge battle in my heart. I know I should change but I afraid tension and....I have 85% of me want me to just let it be for this is easier for both of us. However, I conquer my fear and start to speak out and we have some "!" companion meetings afterward. It was really hard. At first, we talk, then Sister B got mad and refuse to talk to me for I am a terrible communicator. I used to avoid tension and disagreement , so this is new to me.This kind of situation is also new to Sister B for people usually just do what she say without second thoughts.
During the process, we found I can't get people's point nor can't convey my word well. I don't comprehend at once and need time to make my thoughts transfer to words. Sometimes, what I say is not what I think and this make it even harder to communicate.
Anyway, we talk but can't get one another point without several try. This is pretty frustrating. And sister B is kind of person that when she is upset, she need time to ponder and would like to be leaved alone. However, I determined to have good talk, understand one another point of view each time. This really get on her nerves a lot!!! So, we have a good and long talk. And I learn that people need space and I also learn how to communicate with a respect and unpushing way.
Eventually, we do open mind, pour our our thoughts, talk and understand. She grows lots of patience and I learn many communication skills.
About Thy work,
This week we visited lots of LA and have try some new methods like exchange journals. I am happy to know those members one by one. But sad to find out we have to let go some of our investigators.
This week I found our mind separated and can't do everything. I hope I can help my investigators grow and come unto Christ. I love each of them. However, they stop moving and even 退步. The reason why I guess first it's because we do not have companion union,second it's because their heart need more time to soften and be prepared. It took me a long time to realize and admit that. I didn't want to accept or let go for I still have hope for miracles. They might change their heart, mind. Maybe they would one day understand the important of this gospel. However, They are still the same. They really do not care about what we are sharing but just need someone to talk to, accompany. I am really sad for I do have expectations on them. However, I look back of myself, I do have things to work on so He could put prepared people in my hand. First thing I need to be better is companionship. I found we put the saying on our bike about family. But I do not live out or qualified this saying.
During sister exchange, I have a deeper understanding of loving my companion. I am grateful for sister. Lin taught me the responsibility of being myself and help my companion learn and grow. In other word, I have to speak out my opinions about things. Don't just do because big companion say so. Be a person who has principles. I haven't found what is my principle or what kind of person I want to be yet. However, I do get one point- I need to speak out.
Anyway, after this sister exchange. There was a huge battle in my heart. I know I should change but I afraid tension and....I have 85% of me want me to just let it be for this is easier for both of us. However, I conquer my fear and start to speak out and we have some "!" companion meetings afterward. It was really hard. At first, we talk, then Sister B got mad and refuse to talk to me for I am a terrible communicator. I used to avoid tension and disagreement , so this is new to me.This kind of situation is also new to Sister B for people usually just do what she say without second thoughts.
During the process, we found I can't get people's point nor can't convey my word well. I don't comprehend at once and need time to make my thoughts transfer to words. Sometimes, what I say is not what I think and this make it even harder to communicate.
Anyway, we talk but can't get one another point without several try. This is pretty frustrating. And sister B is kind of person that when she is upset, she need time to ponder and would like to be leaved alone. However, I determined to have good talk, understand one another point of view each time. This really get on her nerves a lot!!! So, we have a good and long talk. And I learn that people need space and I also learn how to communicate with a respect and unpushing way.
Eventually, we do open mind, pour our our thoughts, talk and understand. She grows lots of patience and I learn many communication skills.
媽媽寫于1月20日
妹妹:
你不在這段期間，我和慧娟乾媽有更多的接觸，尤其最近她的媽媽被診斷出有膀胱癌，她太忙，於是很多時候我需要去幫忙他。在這些接觸中，我更看到了你和他相像
的地方。上週你信中提到你不善表達讓人了解你云云，我覺得很好玩，因為我在這裡碰到的乾媽也是這樣，明明時間不夠了，她卻無法把握要表達的重點，直接並趕
快說出來，卻在重點的前言或背景知識等說明半天，說時又不停頓，以致我無法插上話或打斷，只能眼睜睜的看時間流逝，卻還是聽不到重點(她到底要講什麼?需要什麼) 哈哈!我好放心，乾媽五十歲了，還活的好好的並有相當的成就，你有我和她這兩位強人的調教和天父的計畫，以後一定是沒問題的啦!
現在最重要的事，是要喜歡自己的不完美，每個人都有優缺點，接受自己的缺點比改進自己的缺點還重要! 因為神的計畫是完美的，缺點的另一面其實是優點。拿乾媽來說，或者從某個角度來看，她沒有我的冷靜、有組織邏輯、甚至能力，但你就是比較喜歡和她在一起吧?! 她不如我那些缺點其實造就我不如她的特質，那特質讓你喜歡和她在一起。
所以，不要怨嘆你的不能，卻要感謝天父给你的一切，包括你的不能、笨拙、等等。也要感謝祂給你的考驗，這都將成為對你有益的經驗。
我感謝主，最後勇敢的讓你去傳教。洗禮加入神的教會，和讓你們去傳教是我和爸爸這一生所做的最棒的決定。
還要提醒你，你的同伴的行為不是你的責任，你無法改變他，你只要堅持遵守規定，能和顏悅色最好，無效時就正色的溝通，再無效就向上傳達。傳道部會長夫妻就是你傳教時的父母，所有事，所有話都可照實和他們說。這就是你愛你父母的最好方式，讓他們知道所有你所想的。(這段也是弟弟要我跟你說的)
有信心還要有行為，快樂的傳教士才能讓人相信福音的美好。回憶你在MTC時天天大便通暢的感覺!
對了，每餐把輕盈、葡萄柚精油滴在水裏八滴，當藥喝下去，會幫助新陳代謝。檸檬水則幫助排毒。
有什麼需要幫忙的嗎?
愛你的媽媽1/20/13
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